a whole new level of sick

Once I'm able to post these blogs, you 2 readers of mine are going to be on pregnancy related blogging overload. But, it's pretty much consuming my life right now.

But not really in a good way.

Last Saturday/Sunday, the morning sickness kicked in HIGH gear. Like for real. The couple of weeks before that, I had waves of nausea that would come and go, but it was okay. I could deal with it.

Not anymore. There is no dealing. There is full blown misery. They tried giving me Zofran at first, and it didn't touch the feeling. Now, I'm on Phenergan. If you've ever taken Phenergan, then you probably know that it knocks you out. So, my options right now are feeling so sick that I want to claw out of my own skin or sleep through the entire day. Obviously can't sleep in a room full of 20 students, so I've only been taking half a dose, which means that I feel awful pretty much every second of the day.

Joey is having to take care of both kids and me all on his own. He's being wonderful, but I know that he is overwhelmed and stressed.

I got my blood results back from last Friday and Monday and they were really good. First 13,000 and then 25,000. I go for an ultrasound on Wednesday, the 8th, and I'm hoping to see a heart beat on the ultrasound. I'm ready to be able to explain to Tripp and Makinley why mommy has been so sick. Not only that, I'm having a really hard time being excited about this pregnancy because I feel so awful. I really just want to go to sleep and wake up when the first trimester is completely over. I'm trying to stay positive and think positive thoughts, but I've never felt this bad in my life for this long and it's hard to fight off dark thoughts when you feel bad. I spend most of my day whispering, "please, Jesus, please help me." It's all I know to say.

At first I was convinced I was having another girl because this pregnancy was more closely resembling Makinley's than Tripp's. Now I have no clue because this one is proving to be totally different than either of my other two.  At this point, I have no clue. Obviously, it's one or the other! :-)