waiting on consistency

I began feeling Addie Grey move weeks ago. However, it was VERY light and VERY inconsistent. To the point of not really being sure that's what I was feeling. On the day I turned 17 weeks, I started feeling her to the point of knowing beyond a doubt that it WAS her. I've pretty much felt her every day since, but there are times when it's so much stronger than others. Yesterday, I barely felt her at all. Maybe once or twice in the morning. Then today, I've felt her pretty consistently for most of the day. I look forward to the afternoons when I can get home and lay flat and see if I can feel her. All mommas know that, when pregnant, there is nothing more reassuring than feeling them move around. Well, other than looking at them on an ultrasound screen. It doesn't matter that it's the third time around....the feeling is still as miraculous as it was the first time. I'm cherishing every single second. I know by the end of the pregnancy, I'll be tired of being poked and prodded from the inside. But, for now, I'm anxious for some strong kicks on a daily basis. On Saturday night, while I was lying in bed, she was kicking hard enough to feel from the outside. I wish Joey had been lying right there. It only happened for a couple of minutes and hasn't happened again since. But, Makinley got to hear her heartbeat for the first time on Saturday too. Her little face was precious! Her eyes got so big. Addie Grey decided to move someplace new and I couldn't find her again to be able to let Joey and Tripp hear. It's hard to believe I'm almost 19 weeks. She'll be here so soon! Our "big" ultrasound is Monday, and I can't help but be a tad bit anxious. I just keep praying for God to take any worry or fear away. I know He has a perfect plan for her and for her life. I'm just anxious to hear that she is healthy and developing right on track. Although we have had several ultrasound so far, we've yet to have the one where they do all their measurements and check for all the things they look for.

It really is amazing how fast they grow! Looking forward to even more pictures of her on Monday. This will probably be the last time I "see" her until she's in my arms!